Eep!

So since I last posted the weather has been fantastic! It has been so warm and the sun has been shining constantly, its only gone back to normal typical British weather as of last night really, but hopefully the nice weather is meant to be back again soon.

Ive been really good since I last posted, I've been a bit more productive I guess, and what with the really nice weather I've been really positive, the only bad thing to happen was on sunday afternoon when I managed to break my finger :(

It happened when I was round Brendan (my boyfriends) mom and dads house and Brendan and I were messing around with the football in their back garden. He threw the ball and I managed to have the ball smack my fingers head on. (Im useless at anything sports related... I cant catch, Im a cliche girly girl in that respect) So yeah, my left ring finger got crunched, no literally, I heard and felt the crack.

It absolutely killed to the point I wanted to cry, imagine your finger on fire... yeah thats how it felt.

It happened about 2'o'clock but I just thought 'whatever, ill put some ice on it' thinking it was just bruised and would stop hurting in a minute.

But by 9 I was still suffering from it and my finger had ballooned and gone black with bruising... so needless to say I went to minor injuries and they bandaged it, the next day I had an xray and what do you know, its broken.

Pure suckage, I've been told not to use that hand much for 6weeks. Which... is kinda ok as I'm right handed (score one for the righties!) But yeah, I never realised how much I use my left hand, for like opening things, and holding things (like the butter tub when I scrape butter out)

Its just like... argh I cant, pressure hurts! lol. (I know I know I'm a wuss).

So yeah, theres the story of my gross zombified finger (seriously it looks zombified). Its more better now though, I just kind of keep doing things I normally do forgetting its broken and cause myself more pain. I kind of went against doctors orders yesterday tidying and reorganising my living room which killed, but it looks so much better now with everything moved around, when I've completed it 100% I will have to put photos up.

Anyway, Im off to eat my butternut squash - sweet potato casserole that Ive cooked, it smells AMAZING! Im going to freeze some to share with my family and Brendan. :D

Oh yeah picture of the day! Look how cute and clever this bento is!

New beginnings

So I would say this is my first blog as it appears on my page, but its not, in truth I have had this blog since 2007, I decided to delete all my old posts as from now on I'm having a fresh start. I want to post more positive entries, and live a more productive and more fulfilling life.

I have a lot of hope for the rest of this year, like moving back to Lichfield and the possibility of going back to college, and maybe getting a job sometime too would be cool.

I think the change will mainly be in myself and the people I associate with, but it will also be my lifestyle.

I'm not drinking anymore, not that I exactly drink anyway, I just want to keep clean because I don't in all honesty think that putting something bad in your body is really a smart thing to do. I can have fun without the need to put chemicals and stuff in my body. And I think if you need to, well, its quite sad. That and in the long run its seriously bad for you. Why pay to die quicker?

Your body is a temple, and thus one should treat it as its sacred right? Life is a gift, you should look after yourself.

I know I have drank like a fish beforehand, but to be fair all I've gained from it is liver damage, stupid decisions, hours of my life missing, embarrassing nights out, and sickness. I wouldn't do the things I have done drunk if I had been sober.

Seriously go for a night out and stay sober the whole time, and look at the people around you who have had a drink. Its mad when you think after a few that is you. Therefore when I go out with friends to the pub I'm sticking to my j20, I'll save my liver and my pennies.

I don't know I'm not here to preach, I just want a lifestyle change, I don't want to be stuck in doing nothing all the time, I don't want to be around people who do idiotic things and who are just complete wasters, I don't want to spend my days sleeping in until 2.

That's not living, that's really sad, and I can't believe these past 2 years I've slipped back from the progress I've made back to square one.

I don't know, all I do know is, as of tomorrow things will change for me, I've made a conscious decision to improve myself and my life. So yay! Go team me!